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september, 2026.

Usually, i despise september.


for me, this month has always been the most mundane, boring-ass month, almost depressing.

no interesting holidays, hot weather with barely any rain, just days filled with ordinary, ordinary things.


but this september, i have a great feeling about it.


because the moment the date turned september 1, i somehow felt myself again.

even better than before.


and when i remember who i am, i remember my mighty God.

i remember my amazing family.

i remember my absolutely incredible friends.

i remember every little thing that i have and everything i’ve experienced.


and suddenly, i find this abundant mindset again.


i know september isn’t going to be filled with nothing but joy.

there will probably be difficult days, unexpected things, and moments that i won’t understand.


but i can confidently say that, whatever comes, i will be grateful.

because i know what i have. i know who i am. i know who holds me.

and knowing that, i’m at full peace.


this might be the first time i’m excited about september.

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