well, that's life.

Kira-kira 3 bulan kurang 10 hari lagi aku berumur 22 tahun. Artinya aku sedang memasuki fase dewasa muda. Saat ini aku sedang magang di Jakarta dan tinggal di ibukota untuk pertama kalinya.  Baru 1 bulan hidup di sini, aku merasa banyak hal yang menghantamku dan seolah meneriakiku:  " welcome to the real world!!! " .  Banyak hal yang tidak kurasakan selama 4 tahun berkuliah di Tangerang. Banyak hal yang baik, banyak juga yang mengecewakan.  Salah satu hal yang sekaligus baik dan mengecewakan yaitu:   You're really on your own. Saat menjadi dewasa muda, orientasi; prinsip; serta prioritas aku dan teman-temanku sudah berbeda dan seringkali tidak bisa diganggu gugat. Hidup kami bukan lagi tergantung pada jadwal kuliah dan perintah orang tua. Rutinitas tergantung pada pilihan hidup masing-masing. Mau bersakit-sakit dahulu atau mau bersenang-senang dahulu itu sepenuhnya pilihan.  --- Menjadi dewasa muda,  aku mulai melih...

Alright... Today I visit my own blog and I can't stand the princess-y design that I really liked when I was a teenager. Sometimes I just left my works just as cringey as it is but sometimes I just need to erase it as soon as I seen it, and thinking.... I had such a horrible taste. Not to mention I have great taste now, but it definitely better. I definitely have seen a lot of references kay... Anyway I only write in english when I'm not too serious, and in a sarcasm mood. So it's 2020. I'm neither excited nor sad about this year. I don't have any feelings towards it. I remember 2 years ago, 2018, best year, my life began with a perfect start. I got big appreciation about my work and I  was beyond proud of it. I had such a positive mindset about life and began to list what I have to achieve next. Then I got many new friends once I stepped out my basic circle. I made films and again, I was beyond proud of it. I thought I learned so much that year, and everyt...